Paper Airplane

Paper Airplane

By Sheyda Beigpour

Have you ever thought of making some changes in you and your life style? There are those times that you become so tired of being you and living your life that you even can't stand doing the same old "everything is gonna be alright" play-act everyday. No matter how hard you try to change this everyday routine, it seems you always end up at the same place you were yesterday, the day before, and wherever you were all your lifetime. Sometimes, you believe you were just wasting your time trying to be better, trying to succeed, to be accepted, to be believed. But you were always just playing the parts they gave you:

Trying to catch the passing time, by crossing out the days on your calendar…

Trying to pass your lifetime until that expected day will come along…

Trying not to be you while it seems that you can’t do anything about it…

Trying to cover your talents and weaknesses in the more popular clothes…

Trying to make others believe you while even you do not believe yourself…

Trying to convince them that you are right, and it doesn’t make any difference if you really are…

You try hard to change your life and everything around you to get rid of the same old routines, but then you realize the real problem with your life is you! And then you’ll definitely be shocked by the fact that all your beliefs, your ideals, and all that you used to call “I”, where just some useless fake idealistic clichés. Right or wrong, it seems you can’t do anything about it. It’s just become so you. You are trapped in a good-looking outside and dark inside heavy package you’ve made of you by all your past, and from inside you can’t see the real world outside. You can’t move it while you are still inside. You are afraid to get out because you don’t know the outer world and what you’re going to look like. You yourself almost hate the whole package, no matter if others like it or not, but is it for sure worse than “nothing”, starting from “zero”? If you are in fact at the minus, would “zero” be a good place to start? You don’t really know it, because you even don’t know where in the world you actually are right now. Once you believed you will change the whole world, but how you thought you would do it while you can’t even change “You”!

Then you wish you could make a paper airplane. No matter how it will look like, you just want it to fly and take you to a far place, very far from where you are standing now. A place where everything is totally different, a new place to start, where you know nothing about that, and no one knows you and what you where before. Only there, you might get rid of others’ prejudices. You believe what people still expect from you as the one you were before will make it almost impossible to change a bit. It is always better to start in a new place than first trying to clean up all that the past painted before.

Then you decide to make that airplane, no matter what will happen, but you need some paper first and the only paper you’ve got is from that package. You should cut it out, but this is the only thing left for you now. It seems that you’ll be nothing without that, and that’s what is frightening. Then you see yourself with a knife in your hand and all your past is in front of you. You realize that it would be better to cut it before it becomes all your future too, before you use that knife to completely destroy your life and yourself. And you decide to do it, no matter what’s going to happen, no matter if you succeed or not, because it’s the only option left for you. This is the one and only price you should pay to see the outside.

Then you’ll put that sharp knife on the walls and push it. And you’ll see a gleam of light shine through the gap…

• 2. “The Shopping Mall” (no offense!): It might seems rude to consider a friendship as a Shopping Mall but unfortunately that’s the way it sometimes it! In that Type of relationship no matter how valuable or desirable it really is, that’s always not the only option. Consider a very great shopping mall that provides all you need and you are a client who has enough money and an unsatisfiable need of whatever that mall could provide you with. But still no matter how great that mall is, that’s neither the only mall you can go, nor you are the only great client that mall could ever have. It’s not the matter of how many; it’s that you have a need for something –even a holy need! - And you just want to satisfy it. Even if you look at your friendship as an opportunity to be better person, help someone, make someone happy, be useful, or care, or love, or ... It’s still the need that you are thinking of. And even no matter how unselfish and kind you might be, you still can find even more and more great way to satisfy that need. You just need and like the relation not the person.

One possible answer :
Here we are not at the position of judging you! but I guess somehow considering a tool as your goal is not a very good option, I mean you can become a painter just by painting, all you have to do is feeling an believing and understand why it’s good to be a painter and how a painter is and more important what you actually want and will get from that- loving just for the greatness of love, helping just for the greatness of a person who helps, and ... is really great if they are what you really want from your life and time. Believe me, correct could be the one you believe, and they way that really takes you that way
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1. “The evening of the last day of a holiday” (In Iran another good name for it could be: “Friday evening”!): It’s the type which people consider it as the last remained part of a sweet thing which is going to be finished soon. In friendship or any other relationship specially among humans, it can be a something that no matter how long it’ll exists but they know it would be over some day for some known or sensible or even predictable reasons, and they like it but they know they can never count on it. You may not agree on the name but believe it or not, it really describes this so well. Consider the evening of the last day of a very sweet and desirable holiday, you like it so much that you might spend all the evening thinking of how bad that could be to lose such an opportunity for happiness and trying to find a way to keep it even for a second longer or any way to consume it more since it’s the last chance for you on that. So you’ll certainly spend those hours more awful than you could ever spend any other terrible time!
   

One Possible Answer :
Hey! Don’t be like that! Take it easy. That’s hard but it’s better for all of you to let it go instead of ruining everything just for a dream that can never come true...
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Relationships

I always believed that there are two significant factors in every friendship that can highly describe it. And by those we can define any relationship between any groups of two or more people. These are The Type and The Value.

Talking of The Value, we can consider it somehow as strength, or effectiveness ratio, or something like them. That means if we consider some advantages and drawbacks, features, or predictable events for any Type, The Value is how powerful that can be. So we can consider it simply as a number in an infinite set of numbers – like natural numbers for example! Anyway in This definition we put all the meaning of any relation in its Type.

Now that we described The Value, I guess it’s the time to describe The Type. Type of a relationship is also a member of an infinite set, but this time it’s not easy to specify any special bound or specific definition of it and all its members, I mean there is no regular and formal definition for this set, and nobody can ever claim that he/she finds and completely understand all The Types which a relationship could have. But by some experimental analyses I found some frequent Types of relationships (Of curse that’s definitely MY PERSONAL IDEA) although these Types might seem to be only use for friendships but they could be even more general, from some simple relationships at an office to all other kind of relationships among any different kind of people in the world which I'll say at the later posts...!

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The Vital "Banana Problem"...

There are some times those a very simple thing makes you think of the very deep feelings and thoughts. I don’t know. An apple, for example, may make you think of God or an orange juice may remind you a very sweet memory of the old days. A banana for example may remind me one of my teachers who once told us: “Loving some thing is not enough, I for example Love Banana!” While she was telling a very long but real story at the middle of teaching a very important lesson again! I don’t think I was listening at all, but every time I see a banana I remember that time. I know it’s funny and surely you would never believe it, but it seems Banana became a symbol of Love for me!

Some one once said: “Most of people don’t know the real meaning of Love. If they knew they would never use it that much.” Thinking of the “Banana Problem” in this way may bring up some new questions like:

“If you really loved Banana, would it mean that Banana loves you in return?”

“If that poor Banana loved you too, would that mean you can eat it?”

“Finally if you were a beloved Banana, would you ever appreciate to be loved this way? Would you even believe that’s the true love?”

Without a doubt no one would take these ridiculous words serious. You didn’t think writers stop writing at the moment they are so tired that they can’t even think! The “Banana Problem” is one of those silly things that I’m sure we never even think of that while telling the Bananas how much we love them! So take all these words as one of those writings…! If you are too tired to go sleep too, send a comment (but be careful, don’t use adult words! This page is reachable for people under 13 too!)

Take it easy and Sleep well…

Be Different....

A “Good Day” is the day of your life that you are Satisfied with. A “Day of your Life” is the day that is Different from other days of your life time, at least in one but significant detail. (And a “Significant Detail” is also a very Slight Fact that can completely Change someone’s Entire Life).

Today could also be another day of my VERY SHORT life, as I’m doing kind of different thing to my life. I’m not sure; all I know about that right now is that I never even thought of having a blog myself. I know, millions of people -or even more- from all around the world, have at least one blog for themselves where they could write almost about everything. I guess it mostly could be something like a place to share your ideas, and life experiences with other “human beings in the entire world”. Wow! What a powerful tool! So let’s see if I could be another Different blogger or not?!

I actually don’t know how it would be. I don’t know if might makes you happy (I hope so), sad (It's necessary sometimes), laugh (it depends), cry (I don’t really think so), like it (I love to), hate (Surely nobody ever forced you read them), change (I like to), helps you realize something you didn’t before (I’ll be happy), answer a deep question that was in your mind for a long time (that’d be my dream),if it adds another “Good Day” to your life time (I’ll be Satisfied by then). If I could learn something from mine and your words here, I would be able to do a huge but good change in my life and style, and it would adds another “Good Day” to my lifetime.

As I always say: “There is No Impossible…!”